I think it’s really starting to kick in that we’re going to have another one (pun intended). Most days I’m moving so fast I don’t get to think about it, but with all the kicks and our 29 week ultrasound this past week, it’s getting real. Jace won’t be our only little one. Am I going to be able to love another as much as I love Jace? I’m so worried about Jace feeling left out or alone or something. He’s so used to getting all the attention and cuddles, and soon we’ll have another in the bed. Jace has been doing good about starting in his big boy bed (crib is officially gone!) at night, but by 2 a.m. he’s sandwiched in between us in our bed. I always wake up before him and end up just staring at him, all creeper style, ha. I’m so uncontrollably sad that he’s going to be 3 in just a few weeks. It’s absolutely horrible how fast time flies by with children. Even though he seems older than he really is, he’s still my baby. He’s scared of things, like windows and dark rooms and hallways. He loves to cuddle in bed and hold hands while watching movies. He gives big kisses and touches your face or arm softly if he accidently hurts you. I know he’ll have the same sweet heart with his brother but my heart breaks at the thought of having to divide my attention between him and another. Maybe it will be easier than I think, especially if I include him every step of the way. I really want to still have one on one time with him after the next one comes, even plan some dates together, just us. I always want to listen to him and talk to him, watch him learn and develop in all the small ways I observe now. Like, when he said he wanted to find his YELLOW bat the other day. He said YELLOW! He’s starting to understand colors. He’s pretty good at identifying animals and things, but colors and letters have been our focus lately, and it melts my heart when he starts talking about colors on his own. I know I’m all over the place, but I’m super scared of having another one in the mix. It’s exciting, but I’ve been so fixated on Jace face for the last 3 years that it seems almost impossible to open up another part of my heart and soul to another. I hear all that changes once the other one arrices, so we’ll see. For now I’m going to soak up all the alone time with Jace as I can, and just let some tears fall. Damn pregnancy hormones! We’re taking Jace to see the dinosaurs in February (the Cabazon Dinasours), and I’m so excited for another fun getaway with him from the every day routine.
Well, here you go. 28 weeks baby! Officially in my third trimester! I can’t believe how fast this pregnancy is going. I can barely keep up. When he’s not at work or hanging with us, Roberto is busy with school full time (online, thank God) and filming a movie with his Dad; Jace is going a hundred miles a minute and hitting sort of a rebellious stage; and my work load isn’t getting any lighter at work. I don’t even know what day of the week it is, half the time. Major pregnancy brain. I just had to check my BabyCenter app to find out the size of our little baby inside (an eggplant, in case you’re wondering). I definitely am not tracking my progress like I did the first time around, but all the little kicks remind me that I have another on the way. He is moving around like crazy (always a good sign), and my ribs are killing me. My hoo ha’s are enormous (how?! What’s in them?!). Sleeping is not comfortable anymore. I’m not supposed to be sleeping on my back, but somehow always end up on my back. With a headache. Gotta work on that. At home you’ll find me in our lazy boy or rubbing shea butter all over myself, or stuffing my face, hahahaha. My bad junk food cravings have definitely leveled out. I can eat salads and seafood now. As you know I’m trying to cut back on the sugar since I need more protein and iron-filled leafy greans, my Doctor says. And Jace is keeping me active with baseball in our backyard every night. I’m still able to work out at the gym a couple days a week, which makes me feel great. Only 12 weeks to go .. and then we can meet our next little boy. Hope he’s healthy in there and all is going well. I wonder what he’ll look like??? Dimples maybe? I hope so! I sure love feeling him in there and knowing he’s almost to the 3 lb mark. It’s about to get really real up in here, come March. Aghhhh!
Snowman. Just kidding! Hahaha. Thought it was about time I make a formal announcement of what we’re expecting in April. And you know me, I have to do something fun, and with Jace in mind. So, I went and picked up a piñata, and let Jace go to town. And who am I kidding, Rob, too! Jace looked pretty serious at first, but then he got really into it. We a took a million photos, but here were our favorites. Jace’s face is too much.
Not really sure I have anything too exciting to show off in this photo .. other than my pale belly, but here is a 16 week shot. And this facial expression really shows how I’ve been feeling lately = easily annoyed, hahaha. I also took a shot of the sky, because it was just so blue and pretty. Even though it’s still in the 90s around here, I can’t complain about the sky. It’s so dang beautiful. And the sunsets. Wow.
Or should I say here I grow agan?! Ha! I’m 14 weeks to be exact and am so flippin’ excited! Being pregnant for a second time feels very different from the first, probably because I definitely KNOW it’s a human in there this time (I was convinced Jace was an alien, hahaha). But, I must say, the first 12 weeks felt harder than the first 12 with Jace. I’ve been more nauseated (or so it seems) and have lived on lime popsicles and preggo pops. Aside from grapefruit and strawberries, I’ve craved almost the same as when I was pregnant with J, including Burger King, Panda Express, Taco Bell .. basically anything that is fast food or bad for you that entails beef or a manwich sauce. Bedtime for me lately is around 8:30p, after I get Jace down, and weekends are now used for napping. My little bump seemed to pop pretty early, too; I already can’t button my jeans and am bringing out all my dresses. No matter how much sick nights I’ve had this go around, I’m so incredibly excited and can’t wait to find out what it is. I really want another boy (and already have a name picked out!), but will be happy with whatever God blesses us with. A girl might spice some things up in my very manly house! I mainly just want to eat good and take all my vitamins, and sleep. That’s really all I want to do. SLEEP. And Jace is already telling people so I don’t have to. He gets that I have a baby in my belly, and that’s what he tells people, but we still have a lot more to work on before he becomes a big brother;) Cannot wait .. we are so thrilled!