I’ve been going non-stop lately it feels like. I actually don’t even plan a lot on the weekends (or during the week for that matter, unless it revolves around food), but with Rob’s schedule and the rush of wanting to get stuff done around the house before baby comes, I think I just needed a day. So I took one the other week and stayed home with Jace. Creating life an’t easy. And this time around I’ve encountered some new things. Like sharp pains in my sides and below the belly, cramping, hip pain (it’s almost like my hips feel bruised!) and some weird back end issues that shouldn’t be happening because I’m actually drinking a ton of water this time (what!?). It’s so hard to be my happy self when things start to weigh down on me, literally. We had our hospital tour recently, too, which just makes me wish it was April 4th already so I could be in there, getting it done! But at the end of the day, when I watch Jace run around the house in his blankie superman cape, or ask me if my butt still hurts, or when Rob runs me a epsom salt bath and puts the heated blanket over my belly, all is well in the world again. I’m so dang lucky to have this little family of mine and for the every day moments of life. I can’t express how wonderful it feels to be in our home together, just hanging out, just us. It’s really been my sanctuary during this pregnancy. I absolutely crave it when I’m not here. Something about a Nespresso in the morning, reading a book in bed while it rains (just finished Still Alice – heart breaking!), hanging in our front room on our $40 couch from Goodwill, cutting fresh roses from our bushes, or cuddling up to watch Annie (Jace loves it, ha), is where my zen is. The best kind of R&R for my changing body. Well, thanks for listening. I’ll just be here stretching more to get this baby grown .. and opening the windows so I can smell the orange blossoms that are already out! ;)
We’ve been talking about going to see “the dinosaurs” with Jace for almost 3 months. I had found some pictures on my Instagram feed and showed Jace and of course he immediately wanted to go. Since before Christmas we’ve been telling Jace, “yes, we’re going to go see the dinosaurs, but we have to save up enough month first .. ” Even Jace started contributing and putting change in his own piggy bank. So, as you can tell, our baby moon to Palm Springs was also centered around taking Jace to see the Cabazon Dinosaurs. And now that we’re back, he wants to go all over again >D. The day we went it was getting pretty cold, but we still made it out there, through the wind and rain. The video of Jace saying, “Want my sweater, want my sweater” just melts my heart. I know he’s cold, but it’s so funny. Just love him XO
And I’m officially not letting Rob take pictures. Why he thinks he needs to zoom in, I’ll never understand. He’s definitely better at video, hahaha. Well, for the record, here are some windy shots of Jace and me:
We just got back from a much needed baby moon, or should I say, Jace moon ;) Our last getaway, just the three of us. I wanted to go somewhere within driving distance and have had my eye on Palm Springs for quite some time now. We’ve always driven by the exits but have never been, so I thought it was a great roadtrip option. The Saguaro hotel consistently fills up my Instagram feed, so I was beyond convinced to give it a try. A little colorful for Rob’s taste, but still fun all the same. And their spa offered prenatal massages;) Once we got there, the pool was bumping with a DJ, but that didn’t scare us. Mr. Jace got his dance moves on and loved the attention from all the pool-goers. My favorite thing by the pool was the watermelon lemonade and the cheese quesadillas made to order — so fresh and cheesy! Our room was super comfy, with soft beds and lots of pillows. We had a great view of the pool, too. And we loved how many fun games and comfy seating they had scattered throughout, including ping pong, corn hole and bocci ball. It was just what we needed .. lots of pool time, snuggles in bed and food to eat!
This week I walked in to my Monthly Marketing Meeting to a big surprise. A baby shower! I really don’t do all that well with surprises, so when everything started to process in my pregnacy brain, I teared up. My team is made up of over 20 people and they all worked together to put this on. There was even an agenda for the meeting so I came thinking I was having to present on a couple topics. They had a big Chick-fil-a breakfast waiting for me, with sausage biscuits, hashbrowns and fruit .. cactus cupcakes, gift baskets, diapers galore (inlcuding an awesome diaper 4-wheeler!), and succulents every where. In case you haven’t heard, my theme for this baby is southwest and catci, so they definitely brought their A-game. We played a fun baby picture match game, which was a hoot! It was a blast trying to figure out who was was who! And some other fun baby shower games, that applied to both men and women. I was so taken back by how thoughtful everything was, and the entire hour and a half was dedicated to eating and gifts and hanging out! And now I feel a little more prepared for baby Walker. And things feel more real now, too, I guess, now that I actually have diapers, ha! I sure do love the team I work with, and feel so blessed to know them. Even my CEO stopped in for breakfast and to give me some advice. All around great morning!
I think it’s really starting to kick in that we’re going to have another one (pun intended). Most days I’m moving so fast I don’t get to think about it, but with all the kicks and our 29 week ultrasound this past week, it’s getting real. Jace won’t be our only little one. Am I going to be able to love another as much as I love Jace? I’m so worried about Jace feeling left out or alone or something. He’s so used to getting all the attention and cuddles, and soon we’ll have another in the bed. Jace has been doing good about starting in his big boy bed (crib is officially gone!) at night, but by 2 a.m. he’s sandwiched in between us in our bed. I always wake up before him and end up just staring at him, all creeper style, ha. I’m so uncontrollably sad that he’s going to be 3 in just a few weeks. It’s absolutely horrible how fast time flies by with children. Even though he seems older than he really is, he’s still my baby. He’s scared of things, like windows and dark rooms and hallways. He loves to cuddle in bed and hold hands while watching movies. He gives big kisses and touches your face or arm softly if he accidently hurts you. I know he’ll have the same sweet heart with his brother but my heart breaks at the thought of having to divide my attention between him and another. Maybe it will be easier than I think, especially if I include him every step of the way. I really want to still have one on one time with him after the next one comes, even plan some dates together, just us. I always want to listen to him and talk to him, watch him learn and develop in all the small ways I observe now. Like, when he said he wanted to find his YELLOW bat the other day. He said YELLOW! He’s starting to understand colors. He’s pretty good at identifying animals and things, but colors and letters have been our focus lately, and it melts my heart when he starts talking about colors on his own. I know I’m all over the place, but I’m super scared of having another one in the mix. It’s exciting, but I’ve been so fixated on Jace face for the last 3 years that it seems almost impossible to open up another part of my heart and soul to another. I hear all that changes once the other one arrices, so we’ll see. For now I’m going to soak up all the alone time with Jace as I can, and just let some tears fall. Damn pregnancy hormones! We’re taking Jace to see the dinosaurs in February (the Cabazon Dinasours), and I’m so excited for another fun getaway with him from the every day routine.