My first born turned 4 today and my heart is tight with emotion. Once a chubby, curly haired babe, is now a skinny, bony preschooler. Crazy to see how fast time really goes by when you see it on your own children. It’s really the saddest most sweetest experience ever. Although I mourn his baby years, I’m also so excited for what the future holds for this little boy. Because that’s truly what he is still. Little. Right now he loves his family time so much, almost too much. He still comes up to me asking for hugs, and wants nothing more than to cuddle and play toys. He loves dessert and Target and holding hands as he falls asleep, and peeking at his lunch after I pack it. The other night I got Walker down for bed earlier than usual and was able to run a bath for Jace all by himself. I sat by the tub like I always do and started playing with his spaceship toys. He looked at me and said, “you’re going to play with me”? In that moment I realized I don’t have enough one on one time with my first anymore. All the hustle and bustle of the every day and wrangling Walker in and out of the bath usually at the same time, I guess I don’t play one on one as much as I used to with Jace. And you know what, he deserves some alone time, where he feels like the only child again. Or at least alone time with me! Thanks for helping me see that my darling. Well, happy birthday to our Jace Face, our sweetheart. Your heart is going to move mountains, I just know it.
When Jace broke my phone at the end of last year, I lost a lot of my photos, and haven’t been to an Apple Store yet to recover them. But thankfully I found these gems saved in my email! Back in October when Pam was visiting I was given suite tickets to the last Giants game of the season – fan day! The view was amazing and we enjoyed all kinds of perks in the company suite. Part of fan day were games and freebies and first game certificates for the boys. Such a beautiful day and a great game. Jace was full of brotherly hugs and photo bombs too. Such a lover that one. Glad I was able to treat my sister to a little fun in the city. We even got to run the bases after the game!
We’ve caught quite the head cold in my house, one that’s officially taken us all out of commission for well over a week. And poor Jace has had it the worst. He refuses to blow his nose so every time we hear a monstrous sneeze we come running with the tissues. Even little Walker has snot coming out by the sneeze-fuls. Hopefully all of our sinuses and lungs clear up this next week and we can feel more ourselves and have more energy. Hopefully you all are avoiding the winter colds and flus going around!
This year I’ve decided to take a break from my social apps, primarily Instagram, and instead focus on using the little down time I have to read all the books people have given me. Normally I give myself a million New Year’s resolutions, but I always seem to fail at all of them, so this year I’m deciding on only one. I’ve also preordered this book, in hopes of getting a better handle on how much time I spend on my phone and why it affects me. Too many times I leave my IG feed feeling bad about myself. How to Break Up with Your Phone also details out the addictive nature of your phone and how it doesn’t allow you to retain real memories or really focus. But at the same time it’s a 30 day activity book to get your life back and out of your phone. The book comes in early February so until then I’ll be picking up my first book from my shelf, starting with Outlander by Diana Gabaldon, and also blogging more. I find that I’m more of my true self when I’m documenting and writing on my blog than on social media. Maybe I’ll come back after this break with a new outlook on how to use Instagram or other social apps in a way that I actually enjoy and gain inspiration from. All this with the caveat that if I start a book and can’t get into it after a few chapters that I can put it down and start another. I have so many more titles waiting in the wind at the library that I can tap into once I get through this list if so. But then there I go again, setting my sights too high!
Here’s the the line up, not in any particular order:
- Written in my Own Heart’s Blood
- Steve Jobs
- A Discovery of Witches
- The Grapevine Vampire
- Behind the Beautiful Forevers
- The Alchemist
- Jane Eyre
- The Tipping Point
- My Life in France
- The Zookeeper’s Wife
- The Reader
- The Keep (finish it!)
- The White Queen
- City of Sanctuary (finish it!)
Wish me luck!
We finally bought another ride, now for Rob’s new commute to work. The 5 months off were nice but the real world was calling, and so were the 80s! We found this little rad thing – an ’87 Toyota Celica up in Milpitas off CL. Only 80,000 miles and purrs like a kitten. No airbags so we drive extra cautiously, ha, but so far so good. I pray God lets us get around it in safely. Even has the old vintage, original plates. You sort of feel like you’re in Back to the Future or some other 80s flick when you drive in it. Let’s see how it does. And also, a big congrats to my main squeeze for landing an Associate Director of Admissions job. Good luck honey! They already love you I’m sure.